About Me

I am Lila Raj Khatiwada (also known as Lilaraj Khatiwada or Leelaraj Khatiwada), a creative soul from eastern Nepal, primarily based around Biratnagar. I see myself as an actor, writer, performer, editor, and director at heart. My passions extend to entrepreneurship, the arts, movies, writing, and even politics. On my online profiles, like About.me and social media, I proudly share these creative sides of my life. My journey began in journalism. I graduated in mass communication and spent nearly a decade working as a reporter and journalist in Kathmandu during the late 1990s and early 2000s. I contributed to publications such as Kathmandu Today, Naya Sadak, and Space Times. Those years were intense—I wrote with passion, but my true dream had always been acting, which sometimes kept me from fully committing to journalism. Then came one of the darkest chapters of my life. Around 2001, I was diagnosed with **Paranoid Schizophrenia**. For over a decade—roughly 13 years—I struggled deeply. I traveled extensively between Nepal and India seeking treatment, facing hospitalizations, different diagnoses at times (like Bipolar Affective Disorder or paranoia), and immense personal turmoil. There were moments of rock bottom: feeling captured by unseen forces, hearing voices, experiencing visions, and even being hospitalized against my will. I wrote about these experiences in my blog post "An Unsolved Mystery of My Life," reflecting on the uncertainty, the travel, and the search for meaning amid the chaos. I refused to fully accept the labels at first, believing something deeper—perhaps spiritual—was at play. But I fought back. Through painting and meditation, along with drawing inspiration from thinkers like Carl Gustav Jung, I gradually overcame much of the condition's grip. Art became my therapy. In 2014, I held an exhibition of about two dozen vibrant paintings at Mandala Theater in Kathmandu. Friends and fellow journalists celebrated my energetic return to social and creative life after years of struggle. It marked my comeback—a testament to resilience and transformation. Today, I remain active and inspired. I run my YouTube channel @himalayanvoicetv, where I have several thousand subscribers. I upload videos on spirituality, interviews, motivational talks, historical and cultural discussions (like Guru Nanak's connection to Nepal), and investigative-style content. My Facebook page (Lila Raj Khatiwada) keeps me connected for personal updates and inquiries. I appear in motivational videos and interviews on TikTok and YouTube, often introduced as an investigative journalist, artist, and inspirational speaker. I've also authored books, including "म को हुँ" (Ma Ko Hun – "Who Am I?"), which explores deep questions of identity and self-discovery. In Nepal's intellectual and creative circles, people sometimes describe me as a resilient figure focused on truth-seeking, motivation, and personal growth. My life isn't about being a prominent politician, official, or businessman—it's centered on media, arts, writing, and inspiring others through my story of overcoming adversity. Through it all, I've learned that enlightenment and healing are profound journeys, not jokes, and I'm grateful to share what I've discovered along the way.